This was my friend Jason. He died in 2003.
Of course, I didn’t know this until tonight. His funeral was held September 25, 2003. And for some weird cosmic reason, I chose now to go hunting for Jason on the internet. To see if I could find him.
And he’s gone.
Jason and I became friends when I was in college. In the early days of internet message boards and usenet groups, somehow Jason and I connected about Star Trek. Our friendship lasted over seven or eight years, but I lost touch with him shortly before I moved from Florida to California.
Of course, I had thought about trying to find him and re-establish contact with him many times over the years, but it just never happened. My sister and I have been working on this spec which has required us to do some research on deafness and blindness. Tonight I started thinking about Jason, wondering if perhaps he’d remember me, and I could ask him some questions that might make our spec stronger. Jason was blind. I used to read books on tape for him, books he couldn’t get on tape at that time — mostly Star Trek books — so he could enjoy them.
My other memories of him are very fuzzy…the kind of fog that descends after a few years when you aren’t living with the memories quite as much…and you wonder if it was ever real.
In my search for Jason this evening, I discovered his father had written a book about his son. I don’t know if Jason ever mentioned me to his parents. Jason was such a flirt, but I loved talking to him on the phone – he had a way of making me feel beautiful…which made no sense to me. He was blind, and yet, he was certain I was gorgeous.
Jason was passionate about mathematics. And Star Trek. I remember many Star Trek conversations that carried us through the years.
And now I really hate that I missed out on the last year or two of his life.
I know some people think it seems silly or stupid to go hunting for old friends/acquaintances on the internet. But this one I wish I had found far sooner. Now all I will ever have are the foggy memories of our conversations and whatever old emails I can dredge up.
We never did meet in person. Not that it mattered.
Goodbye, Jason. I’m sorry I never finished reading that last “Star Trek: Voyager” book on tape for you.
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This post was written by Shawna on September 27, 2009